if you thought i wasnt upset, that would mean i didnt love you, that i didnt care, but i am upset, not that you can do anything about it. So thats why i smile and act like nothings wrong, like everythings normal, because what will i achieve by telling you it hurts?…nothing. Little do you know how many nights ive killed my pillow successively or cried silently till my head swims.
So…if when i tell you it hurts, you hurt and if when i tell you i love you, you die… then i won’t say anything. And when you get over it i wont tell you im not.
Entry 0 04. 07.10
